depression – Goddess of Foxes

Forlorn

I’ve needed companionship for quite some time now, actually. I need someone who I know is there, whether it’s to be listened to or just hugged, knowing my company is not just wanted, but as equally needed.

Rectifying some Regrets

I love my home. It is peaceful, calming and a space I always dreampt of living. I fully enjoy telling people who say, “I wanna live in a cabin in the woods!” that I am somewhat living that dream. It isn’t as cottagecore as they imagine, but, for all intents and purposes, it is what it is.

Calling for Help

A funny thing often happens when you take that step, suck up the courage, and admit to the world the deep seated pain of loneliness and depression that has been prevalent in your life for longer than you can remember being happy.

The limitations of going alone

Over the last few years, since moving into my current home, I have started to give in to the realization that I can’t do everything on my own.

Literally forever

It’s been forever and a day since I last wrote here. Hard to believe a month has passed by already!

New man

I have been without pets for almost 2 years now. I had to have my sweet puppy put to sleep in July 2019. It was one of the hardest, most heartbreaking things that I have had to do in my life. I still miss him very much and wish he were still with me.

Early spring

It has been warm, sunny and beautiful outside. My curtains have been opened, the space heaters turned off, and my mood has greatly improved! I hadn’t been aware that the freezing temperatures would have such an effect on my mood.

The loveless

It’s Valentine’s Day. That singular day of the year that reminds me I’m shitty at finding soulmates.

Unprotected moments

I try my hardest to not let things drag me down. I try super hard to control my situations that I can control. I have learned how to detatch from those situations that I can’t control and cannot affect to prevent myself from being overrun with anxiety. It is a weird thing for me to do as it has been against the nature of who I have been growing up. I was forever tormented by the “What ifs”. I still am, but I try to shut those things up pretty fast.

The inabilty to do

I suffer from exectuive dysfunction. It is frustrating, disappointing and annoying.