It’s been a chaotic month for me. I think I’m finally coming to terms with the changes.
Anxiety brain is often times weird.
Yesterday was the first time I had been out in public during the hours people go out.
Over the last few years, since moving into my current home, I have started to give in to the realization that I can’t do everything on my own.
As I’ve said before, my daughter and I have been on rather terse terms since shortly after lockdown.
Why are people so bad at communicating? I ask this question at nearly every place I have worked.
My father was not the best of people. I do question if he was as bad as my narcissistic mother made him to be to garner my devotion to her, but I do know there are things about him that weren’t at all okay in society. However, he did, somehow, manage to instill certain beliefs, traits and ideologies I have followed even to this day.
Life is often filled with little signs that try to promt you into action. If you don’t respond to them, they tend to disappear or. ecome a part of the landscape. Then a bigger sign will come by, and another, then a larger one, then maybe a neon one, till eventually, you hit the “DEAD END” sign and all options feel off the table. You’re left scrambling around trying to find anything that looks like a path.
The last two weeks gave been a bit trying and tiring. I’m hoping this next month is better.
It’s been forever and a day since I last wrote here. Hard to believe a month has passed by already!