feelings – Page 7 – Goddess of Foxes

Imbolc

Today is one of those pagan holidays I have never participated in, so I really had no idea how to celebrate it, other than acknowledging the turning of the year from the cold winter to the warm spring.

Unprotected moments

I try my hardest to not let things drag me down. I try super hard to control my situations that I can control. I have learned how to detatch from those situations that I can’t control and cannot affect to prevent myself from being overrun with anxiety. It is a weird thing for me to do as it has been against the nature of who I have been growing up. I was forever tormented by the “What ifs”. I still am, but I try to shut those things up pretty fast.

Love and light vs hate and dark

I decided to start the journey to reconnect with my pagan spirit a while back ago. Over 6 months, really, when I decided to get back into tarot, intention and general creative visualization. Since these all go hand in hand for me, it made sense.

French bread pizza

I made french bread pizza today when I got home from work. It seems like a weird thing to mention, however, it always reminds me of my favourite grandmother.

Renewal

Now that I’ve gotten my complaining out of my system and I’ve gotten some things accomplished, I feel much better.

The way we are

How we treat other people has gotten particularly problematic over the years, at least in the States. It seems we no longer look at each other as fellow travelers, but either tools to get what we want, or hinderances in that same acquisition.

The stress of ignorance

While I was at work a while back, I noticed a magazine that I used to love, so much so, my mom had gotten me a subscription to it.

Relationship dreams

When I was younger and thinking about how my life would be, I can be 100% certain this is not what I pictured.

Week’s accumulation

So, it seems my blood pressure/arrhythmia thing was the precursor to something more, but really, nothing. The group situation also reached a climax, but not a good one.

Excuses are not acceptable currency

The one thing in this world that I will never accept are excuses. I don’t accept them from others and I don’t accept them from myself. I find excuses disrespectful, disingenuous, and a fake apology. Excuses provide nothing of substance and allow the person to shirk their personal accountability.