We all fall down

I had intended to post something sooner, but life had other plans.

We had our first snow of the year. I love snow. I don’t think I will ever not like snow. Last week, we got 8 inches of it. Outside of the 36 inches we got one year all in one night, that is the most snow that has fallen since I moved here 5 years ago.

Of course, along with the snow can come problems. This year, it was with the cars. My daughter’s jeep broke down the following day. Mine ended up losing a windshield wiper and the panel in front of the passenger tire, making it unnerving, to say the least. On top of that, it’s the height of the holiday buying season and I have practically been living at work. (Or it feels like it at any rate.)

Car problems always give me anxiety. I try not to let it get to me, but it always weedles it’s way under my skin and dances on my nerves in the worrywort ways my brain knows far too well.

It also doesn’t help that I’ve been dealing with some pretty high grade exhaustion, mostly due to poor diet and depression, as well as lack of time and funds, but, it is kicking my butt. So being asleep before 7:30 hasn’t been an uncommon event recently.

I was somewhat disappointed to be so tired on Yule that I couldn’t take time to focus on my intentions, make plans, and make some attempt at following my spirituality. It is one of my goals this year. I have already written down my intentions and plans for 2021, but it would be nice to focus more intently on certain points of it. So I missed the Great Conjunction, but it was concealed by clouds and freezing temps, so, such is the story of my life. I wish I had been able to stay awake to do some work, but I have over 365 days to do that.

This last week has basically been a sort of survival mode week. So it makes sense that I’ve not been focusing on my “better self”, at it were. I have the next two days off, which I will absorb and use for some physical and spiritual healing. It’s been a rough week and I plan to be kind to myself for a couple of days, indulge in some decadent foods and reflect on my plans, look forward to the future and use some free flow writing to set the course for my next adventure.

For the rest of this year, I’m going to cocoon my spirit in some much needed self love and pampering. The rest can wait till the new year.

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