dilemmas

I have been wanting to do a podcast for years now.

My problem is I have too many things I want to talk about or do as a podcast.

I want to do some reality based law of attraction, some everyday skeptical witch stuff, a follow along manifestation program, a serial horror story based on an imaginary lake area, a daily meditation series, a “what’s that about” podcast where I explain things that I have run across that I needed to look up, a yearly ritual podcast that goes through each month and talks about woo things for that month, and even a fetish podcast going through the really bizarre and unknowns fetish fantasies.

How the hell do you pick one? Or even 3? How do I even know what will be interesting and what won’t be?

These are all things I can absolutely talk about. Things I know or can create. Half of them, I already have the outlines for and episodes relatively worked out. Some, I’d love to have someone else to work on them with me. Some, I’d love to have someone to help voice them. Some, I need to look up music. I also have to consider TikTok, which I have no idea how to use, YouTube, SEO or whatever is being used these days, and everything else. I don’t even want to monetize these. I just want to do them. I don’t think anything I create is really worth money. At least, nothing I’ve created so far has been, so I’m not even thinking about that.

Then, it’s a matter of recording. I absolutely hate my voice, though I have been told it is lovely and “sexy” *eye roll*. I have been told it is relaxing and sometimes sleep inducing. Not exactly the reaction I want, unless I am doing the meditation one, I guess. Also, I want one that I do with someone else, but my search has been for naught. And finding someone to narrate who is of the mascu,ine voice persuasion is also hard as I don’t have any friends who are men who are willing to do it.

I know a large part of it is to just do it. Just jump in, record, post, and see what happens, but honestly, I am certain it will amount to nothing, lol. Almost everything I do amounts to nothing, and then I get disappointed. I know I should do things with no expectations, but it’s hard. My expectation is that people will enjoy what I offer. They will want to consume what I create. That they will spread that word to their friends and other people will enjoy it.

I know by not doing anything, nothing will happen.

Sigh…

I still need to figure this all out.